Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Out of Gas

Last week was a recovery week during training, so my mileage dropped to an absolutely minimum.

Halfway through the week, I noticed a lymph node that had been slightly swollen seemed to almost quadruple in size. I was asymptomatic and had no other implications of viral infections.

Nervous, I backed off running for one day to see if that would help. Perhaps the heat, sweat, etc etc were agitating it.

After six days, I finally went to the doctor and had some tests done.

I've got the green light to run, but I can't seem to shake a feeling of fear.

I hate having a burden of knowledge, and I hate constantly checking myself right now.

I have skipped two more runs since being okayed to run.

I need to run.

I need to run.

5 comments:

holly @ couchpotatoathlete said...

Julia get out there and run! Your body needs to release the stress of dealing with doctors. I hope everything is ok! Take care.

~Jessica said...

Get the eff outside! Take that dog with you!

Ashlee said...

You can do it! Getting back out there is the hardest part!

I think I found you on the WW boards? I've been reading for awhile, I'm a kinda new, really slow runner. But, your posts seem to be just the encouragement I need some days...

Nikki (laxalum) said...

The only thing that will make you feel better is a run--you know that and it's the same advice you would give to someone in your situation. With that said...(((hugs)))

Jean said...

You can do it jules!!!! You'll be glad you did!