Want to know why I did do the triathlon on Sunday? Ok I will tell you.
WHY I DIDN'T RACE MY FIRST TRIATHLON ON SUNDAY, JUNE 12TH
- I gave myself less than a month to train. I know I most likely would have been fine, and would have finished but I am really sick of half-assing my races. I also really hate, MEGALOATHE when people hear about running a marathon or a half marathon, and sign up a month before and think they can be ready. It cheapens the months and months of training everyone else did. I have too much respect for my triathlete counterparts to do that. I am not naive to think that this would have been easy. Training for a triathlon is hard work, it takes months of dedication and conditioning. For me to just to show up, after a few weeks of mediocre training would have been an insult to those valiant souls who spent countless hours sweating on a bike, on the trail and in a pool/lake.
- I could not find a bike. Silly excuse, but it turned out to be a pretty big obstacle for me. I have never had a bicycle of my own since I was like seven years old. At the age of seven, I fell of my brother's bicycle and left it on the sidewalk in front of my home to get a band aid. Ten minutes later it was stolen. I never had a bike since, I borrowed people's to get from here to there. When, I lived in Honduras in 2005, I rode a bike for the first time in years but since my stay there I hadn't really been on a bike. Being as busy as I am, I had a very small window of opportunity to track down a decent bike to ride during the race. I found myself the Thursday before, frantically asking people and visiting bike shops for rentals. Frankly, the bike shops were pretty snobby to me seeing as I had no idea what size I needed, I hadn't been on a bike since 2005 and I was asking to rent a 3k bike. The rental would have been nearly $100 and honestly, my clumsy behind does not need to responsible for three thousand dollars of bicycle.
- I was scared. Usually fear is something that I can handle, I get a little nervous about every race-not so much anymore-but there's always a twinge. This though, this was something new. This was something I knew NOTHING about. I didn't even know how it would work. I have only seen pictures of triathlons. I had so many strange questions, and doubts. It was overwhelming for me to show up completely under trained and not knowing what to expect.
- I had no Open Water swimming experience. NONE. I had heard sooo many stories about people having anxiety attacks in OW, and I could just feel that happening to me with all my already built up anxiety.
- I am a chicken.